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I am not sure on where to start lol I never was like all the other girls I grew up with I was a GI Joe girl lol but yeah I have always felt the same I do believe but understand a lot more now lol that reminds me when I was younger there was this bubble thing for kids so they can shave their face just like daddy I used it thinking I would have to know how to do it for when I got older but yeah that's me I guess
Any who....I guess I just always knew that feeling was always there

lol, I think I've always known it, back there in that part of your brain that tells you that the stove is hot but you insist on touching it just to make sure. I grew up as an army kid though, so it was pretty normal to see me out there playing soldiers and war with all of the boys my age. I spent years wondering about myself as relationship after relationship failed because I was never really into any of the guys that I 'dated'. Finally, I met an openly gay girl and decided 'What the hey, I'll try something different.' She became my first girlfriend, and I've been hooked on girls ever since ^^

well looking back ive always been bi (liked barbie for rainy days but had just as much or more fun climing trees and eating worms) but i didnt realize that other girls didnt find both girls and guys attractive till i was 15 or 16 and we talked about it in small group at church. after that i was pretty ashamed of my feelings cuz i was taught they were wrong till i did some self discovery and realized that i always had a hard time embracing christianity cuz it wasnt for me. free from christian law, i was able to accept myself at 17. ive only had one 1 GF but i know bi.

LoL, I noticed that several people cut their ties with religion before coming out fully...you don't have to. I am a Catholic, have been and will most likely be one until I die. So a few of Christian beliefs are obscured and incorrect, it doesn't mean that the entire religion is wack. idk, it was your choice, but I just want people to know that you can still hold onto your religious beliefs even if your not straight.

I don't know I have never really been in to all that all becasue I think all of it is wrong lol I do believe there is something higher but at the same time how they have to kiss it's a** all the time doesn't seem right to me something all loving will send you to burn for not doing what he / she said to when it has given us free will to choose how to live out our lives
It's just the peple pick and choose what goes in to the bible and want it their way men in power gays wrong to hide something I do believe and they just like to be right The ones in control believe in what you want how you want no one can ever take that away from you just hope and dream like it should let us believe in your self and others and live out your days with out the bondage of anothers word

Okay. XD This is awkward...I can't really say. I'm sure I always knew, in the back of my head...But since straight was the norm I always figured I was.

Then I realized that me liking Shoujo Ai and thinking about every guy I saw as unattractive wasn't such a coincidence. So I spent a short amount of time trying to "figure it out". Aka tell myself I'm straight because that's what's normal even with the overwhelming evidence of me being a big lezzy.XD I kinda gave up but still kept the straight/confused title...then it just faded as I kinda subconsciously accepted it. ( It wasn't such a big priority because I already knew. I just didn't want to really face it I guess.) I fully did when I got my first girlfriend.XD

So it's mostly me knowing and trying to deny it but still acting like one anyways while pushing the "its wrong" in the back of my head. Then me being like..." How did I ever think I was straight?0-o" Well, I WAS like...11-12 during most of it sooo.XD But I think it's also because my family is so hostile against gays so I didn't want to be one.*snort*

It's really amusing. How I was like "Me lesbian? Pfft, of course not...ZOMG SHOUJO AI SO CUTE." Rofl. Now I'll shuddup before I embarrass myself further.

Thanks. ^^

Now, for my story ... I guess that I always knew something was up, though I couldn't really put my finger on it. There were times when I would imagine what it would be like to be a girl, though that would quickly go away, scolding myself, wondering what the heck I was thinking. sweatdrop

And then, I did a comic shortly after I graduated high school, with myself pretty much being the main character. Well rather, a more idealized version of myself. ^^ And then, said comic was put on the back burner for a few years. Then one night, I had the idea of re-doing it. And then, after having some thoughts, I decided to make the "me" character female. And then, it clicked! She was easier to write for, not to mention more interesting to draw! ^^ Plus, my artwork improved by leaps in 6 months than it did in years.

And then, I finally got on the 'net. While I initially presented as male, being such IRL, at least in the physical sense. Though I would explore a feminine persona from time to time. And, with that said, slipping into said persona requires little effort, and feels more natural. One sign that for sure says that I just might actually be female is one time, this guy IMed me out o' the blue, with no reason to know I was male, and talking with the guy he really thought he was talking to a girl! O_o I debated whether or not to tell the guy about me, but then I "played along". As I went on, I realized there was no need to act. I truly was being myself.