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Are you shaken from the break-up and thus avoiding men, or is it something else? What did that relationship mean to you? Defining your sexuality is certainly not something you need to hurry about. I'd say come to terms with what your ex-boyfriend meant to you along with what identifying as a lesbian as opposed to bi would change for you.
I think that's the best I can do unfortunately. You can choose the words but you can't choose the feelings. Overtime things will become more clear. I'd say for now just enjoy life and don't worry too much about what to call yourself since labels can be just as restricting as they are empowering if you're not completely certain of them.
Wow that was wordy. I hope at least a little bit made sense.
lol yeas it was wordy but it did make sense.
he meant a lot to me at the time, and he's my good friend now, but I just never felt entirely...there... with him... and I'm not talking sexually, that just wasn't something I thought of much (I was 14/15). I just always felt like I just needed to have him, coz I'd never been liked before.
I've only liked one guy in my life other than him, but I've liked about seven girls. I never talked to any of them but one, and she won't take me. I've never felt pretty or anything, and certainly not worth anyone's affection. I grabbed onto my (now) ex when he asked me out because I thought it was my one chance to be happy.
I already knew I was bi then, but I started questioning whether I was just striahgt up (lol) lesbian after we were together a while. I'd play the part of his gf physically, but I never really wanted it. I suppose it's possible he just wasn't good, although I wouldn't really know (one and only significant other person), but honestly the whole time I was just wondering what it would be like to have a real girlfriend... that's actually why our relationship ended, I didn't feel like it was fair to make him wait for me to figure it out.
how's that for wordy? XD was that any good?
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