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You might have a genetic predisposition to be depressed or overly anxious or something if your family has a history of acting like that. There honestly isn't any way to fix that stuff, at least I haven't found one yet. I barely really talk to more hand a dozen people. I keep to myself as much as I possibly can. The few times I've been in a relationship that I genuinely liked, I got ******** over. All that gave me the time to think, really think, about myself and how others perceive me. Not very many people can truly be themselves around everyone. Actually, doing that is pretty much discouraged. In this day and age it's much easier to just try and fit into a societal mold just like everyone else and slowly feel out to see just how YOU you can be. I've pretty much found that I really can't get anything I'm looking for where I am, hence why I'm moving to the opposite side of the country as soon as I can. The best thing I've found to do is just try and be friendly to everyone, but still keep a nice distance from everyone so you won't be affected as much if something bad happens. You can't really help whether or not you have a clique of friends who always hang out with each other all the time. Don't get jealous of what a handful of people have. Nobody like that ever got famous or did much for the world compared to the amount of independent people. You want it, I want it, most people want it, but it's not something you can really help unless you become a psychology professor and manipulate everyone to do what you want, and then it loses its value from being guilty or something. Then again, I'm a bit of a pessimistic person, so this is just my view on the whole situation.

Yea, medications, assuming you got on the right ones the first try, work fine for about a month, and then start giving you more problems than you'd really like to pay for. I've been on anti-depressants and ADHD meds before. The anti-depressants eventually stopped working altogether and caused my jaw to tremble for like a minute every time I yawned, and they gave me nausea, too. They were supposed to help with anxiety, too, but didn't do a damn thing on that part. The ADHD medications made it so I would never sleep and I never wanted to eat anything. I went days without eating while I was on those >_>; It's better to try and get yourself together mentally before you decide to get on meds.

Honestly, yea, that's pretty much it. Don't make friends with people like that. I know guys like that, I want to beat the s**t out of them for being abusive ******** and give'em a taste of their own s**t. They've got problems, problems you don't need to deal with. They can act, holy s**t, they're awesome stare Hoping is really all anyone can do anymore. Either that or get rich and famous and buy your friends =/

I'd go off and say about 95% of humanity is as shallow as a pool of spittle upon the floor.

There's somethin' I read in a book not too long ago. My life coach was makin' me read it. It talked about how we can't change until we accept who we are. If we don't like how we are now then we refuse to accept ourselves for who we are, and so we're halted on our own personal growth. Once we are at peace with ourselves and go by our own pace and forgive ourselves is when we can move forward.

People are constantly too hard on themselves, and they won't accept failure. But failure is necessary for growth, and we have to overcome the idea of failure being a bad thing, because failure will always come along our pathway of life, since no one is perfect. When things go wrong we must learn to accept them as going wrong and grow from them, instead of letting them poison our minds and stop us.

Hatin' ourselves and bein' hard on ourselves will never help us grow. We have to take care of ourselves and go slowly. If we achieved everythin' in the beginnin' of our lives the rest of it would seem pretty borin', since it's the journey of life that's the most fun!

I know some people don't agree with my ways, but who knows, it might help. 3nodding