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Alright, this isn't really a rant for anyone, just a place for me to put somethin' I realized before I go to bed and forget it.

Over the past few years I have been tryin' to find true happiness for myself. I have come very close but still lacked somethin' that made me stumble, and I have realized what that somethin' is. I am still bound to things that bring me pleasure, such as overeatin', oversleepin', wastin' my money on random stuff, and things of that nature. Not only that, but there are much deeper things I am still attached to, like my desire for attention. If I want to gain true happiness I must release my body of these desires, and I can do so with simple reasonin'.

I have to keep in mind that the only thing that can bring happiness is the mind. No matter what horrible events may occur it is the mind that decides how to react to it. If I can see the positive side to everythin' then it is impossible for anythin' to get me down. Therefore, simple objects that bring me pleasure do not bring me the happiness I desire, but are rather objects that help guide me to the happiness. By thinkin' positively I can still make it to happiness without the use of guides.

As for the desire for things such as attention, I need to simply ask myself why I want it. I know I want attention in order to prove to myself that I am what I want to be. I use people's reactions to judge myself, since I know that no one can see themselves the same way others see them. However, I can be however I want to be with enough practice, and I am not here to please others but to please myself. It is impossible to make everyone happy, so tryin' to do so will lead me nowhere, and thus I must do what makes me happy with myself and accept how it makes others see me. If I am truly happy with myself then I won't care what others think of me.

Though I must drop what desires I have, that doesn't mean I can't do them every once and a while. Food makes me happy, so piggin' out every once and a while isn't bad as long as I learn moderation. Same with wantin' attention. It's not bad to want to be noticed just as long as it'd in moderation. I can do whatever makes me happy as long as I control myself and keep a healthy balance.

And above all things, I must live with no regrets. I want to live so that if I was to die at any moment I would not regret a single thing. There are things in my past that weren't the smartest, but I don't regret them because I learned from them and would not be who I am now had I not experienced them. However, I will not make such bad decisions again.

If I can eliminate my desires and live with no regrets then I will be truly happy!

Humans are the only animals that insist on being happy for their entire lives. Remember that. Remember how the worker ants work their asses off for little to no happiness and you'll be alright =]

They don't know happy, they're not mammals >_>; I think mammals and birds are the only animals that we can assume know what happy is.