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 Posted: Mon Sep 01, 2008 9:38 pm
Alright, so maybe I haven't figured out why I get upset about my ex still.
So there someone in my cafe that I've been keepin' an eye on because they haven't been too happy recently. So they say that they're goin' to another thread so I go to see where it is to make sure they're alright. I find out it's a thread my ex made, so I read a few posts and find someone who also goes to my cafe in there lickin' my ex. I know my ex, she tends to let people do whatever they want to her because she doesn't want to upset people. So in my cafe (since I didn't want to start up anythin' in my ex's place) I just post to explain to the guy that she doesn't like that type of thing. So then my ex comes in and tells me to leave them alone and she can do what she wants, and then the guy comes in and tells me he hates me and that I'm an aweful person. I also found out that the thread was a secret thread made for the sole purpose of bein' away from me, and most of the people from my cafe are in there so that already makes me feel pretty low. On top of that, most of the people in my cafe are now in the tavern talkin' about how to get rid of me, so I just feel so used.
Then I find out that my ex already likes someone else and has kissed her when it took her a long time to work up the courage to kiss me.
I don't understand. It hurts so badly. I just can't stop cryin' and I don't know why. I mean, I'm the one that broke up with her because I knew she could find happier, and yet it makes me so sad that she has found happier. I know I don't love her anymore, I guess I just feel like I meant nothin' to her even though I gave all I could to her. I mean, I went to an out of state college way more expensive then the one I was gonna go to just for her, I got bus tickets to her house on weekends, I've made her videos, drawn her pictures, gave her money, everythin' I could do and more. I just wanted to make her happy and it's like I was just nothin'. She took all I was worth, broke my heart, then found some new person.
I know it's not really like that, but it's just how I feel. Two and a half frickin' years.
I won't rant any more since I hate so much drama and I don't wanna talk about my ex behind her back. I just feel so...I dunno.
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Posted: Mon Sep 01, 2008 10:36 pm
Alright, I think the main thing was just so much stuff happenin' at once. I had all that plus I haven't been able to sleep well, don't feel good, been workin' long nonstop shifts, and have the beginnin' of my sophomore year tomorrow, so it was just too much stuff at once and I cracked, but I'm good now. I'm just gonna keep this up to look back on tomorrow to better understand it. And just to see what people have to say as well, because I'm an attention whore like that. 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Sep 02, 2008 5:19 am
ohhhh this seems awfully familiar.. this is what my ex did to me.. after.. 2/3 weeks of our break up he already had himself a gf whom he
a. told me was just a friend
b. probably kissed and had sex with by now if i know how he is dealing with this.
which made me feel like what we had for almost 2 years meant NOTHING to him.. and made me feel like such garbage..
this is what i did to help get over that..
I made new friends, and started to build new relationships with these new friends. hanging out and getting your mind off of it is going to be tough but you will need to do it.. you might need to avoid her for awhile and just leave her be as painful as it is. but the further away you are the better it will be for you in the long run.. you wont get hurt by her anymore.
Dont let those people bother you too much either.. its the internet.. they have no idea who YOU are. so dont let it get in your way in any way, shape or form. Just ignore them and keep going.
Right now, me and my ex are "lets call ourselves friends but in reality will never speak a word to each other" so really we arent too much of anything. I know it may seem weird but i guess what he did to me made me get over him a hell of a lot faster than norma. maybe this will help you out semok. just realizing this wasnt truly meant to be and trying to move on.
good luck to ya though
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Posted: Tue Sep 02, 2008 6:37 am
I have been makin' new friends, which is fun, and it does keep my mind off of things, the only problem last night was that everythin' just happened at once and I couldn't handle it. I'm actually fine now, though my eyes are all poofy.
And I know it wasn't meant to be and I really am happy that my ex found someone since, from talkin' to her last, I found that a lot of her friends are ignorin' her and she's about to get a lot of teeth pulled and braces and a headgear thing so she needs someone there to comfort her. Knowin' there will be someone there for her makes me happy.
See, I wouldn't have gotten upset at all last night if it was one thing at a time. Just the load of everythin' goin' down at once made me spiral, but I'm back on my feet again and ready for a new day!
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Posted: Tue Sep 02, 2008 5:04 pm
sweet! at least you arent commplety hung up about it.. =D i could be wrong though
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Posted: Tue Sep 02, 2008 8:51 pm
Yeah, I'm also workin' a lot so I don't have the energy to even think at night. On top of TAin' and college classes I'm also workin' full time right now, and boy do I love it! I love makin' pizza, makes me feel so warm on the inside. whee
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Posted: Thu Sep 04, 2008 4:53 pm
theonlypie ohhhh this seems awfully familiar.. this is what my ex did to me.. after.. 2/3 weeks of our break up he already had himself a gf whom he a. told me was just a friend b. probably kissed and had sex with by now if i know how he is dealing with this. which made me feel like what we had for almost 2 years meant NOTHING to him.. and made me feel like such garbage.. this is what i did to help get over that.. I made new friends, and started to build new relationships with these new friends. hanging out and getting your mind off of it is going to be tough but you will need to do it.. you might need to avoid her for awhile and just leave her be as painful as it is. but the further away you are the better it will be for you in the long run.. you wont get hurt by her anymore. Dont let those people bother you too much either.. its the internet.. they have no idea who YOU are. so dont let it get in your way in any way, shape or form. Just ignore them and keep going. Right now, me and my ex are "lets call ourselves friends but in reality will never speak a word to each other" so really we arent too much of anything. I know it may seem weird but i guess what he did to me made me get over him a hell of a lot faster than norma. maybe this will help you out semok. just realizing this wasnt truly meant to be and trying to move on. good luck to ya though if he is screwing her, he is probably compensating for loss of a wonderful personage like you.
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