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 Posted: Fri Oct 01, 2010 5:43 pm
so first let me apologize with not being on in such a long time. (senior year too much work no time and all hopefully college won't be this bad)
Well recently alot of things hav happend. where to start... well ending my junior year in HS i had to write a philosophy of life paper basically a story about me. i had no clue what to write so i just wrote what came to mind i wrote about my past when i lived in philly how my life changed when i moved to the subburbs and about realizing i was bisexual and my fear of what my father would say. well i handed it in and got called down to the counselors office to be asked if i was ok if i needed to talk or anything if i was really sure i was gay. at first i was angry because out of evrything i wrote the only thing he cared about was that i was gay. its like really there's more to me than my sexual preference. after i came home i found out that my dads nosy gf went on my computer and read the paper i wrote and threatened to tell my dad unless i did everything she said i said go ahead im eventually going to have to tell him anyway. she didn't say anything and as far as i can tell she hasn't told my dad but she goes to great lengths to make sure her daughter and i are not in a room alone (i mean come on i've been gay from b4 they even came here why would i be interested in a 12 yr old that's practically rape im almost 18 eww) i've been in love with my BFF who i call my twin but she's dating this guy and about a week ago she was telling me about how he proposed to her and their going to elope after she graduates and then she'll go to art school (he graduated last yr and goes to a tech school) i wanted to tell her how i felt but i saw how happy she was when she was telling me that i just couldn't say anything to her. i told my self i would give her up just be her friend it's what she wants even if he doesn't deserve her he has her and there is nothing i can do about this.
i'm just at my wit's end i really don't know wat to do with myself i feel myself receding away into a small shell i kno my friend tony likes me and hes trying to keep me here in the now but i just don't wanna get hurt again. What do i do?
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Posted: Thu Oct 07, 2010 6:01 am
It sounds like your in no shape for a relationship no matter who it is with.
College is hard too (I'm working on my masters) but you get use to it. If you do go to college, trust me, you'll forgot all about this. You'll meet new people and find love again.
Is your friends bf really a bad guy? Or are you seeing him as one becuase you want to be with her? If he really isn't a good bf you should bring it to her attention. To be getting married so young is not a good thing. Are they religious? Because if they're not, there's a good chance they'll get divorced later on. Not that I wish them ill will. But to jump into something like this so fast, doesn't usually have good results.
I hope things work out for you. *hugs* send me a PM if you want to talk about it anymore.
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2010 4:55 pm
Being religious is no guaranty that a marriage will last.
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