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Title: Wonderland
Summary: Frank Iero is no stranger to being the new kid at school. Belleville Academy is his last option for education. Right away, his mind is set by the blood covered student he sees on campus. He wants to stay at school this time.
Rating: T-M
Genre: Supernatural / Romance
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except the plot.

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The reserved posts are just for future chapters.
There is a set number of seventeen chapters, including an epilogue.
An important note: Thoughts will be in italics. It's kinda important to the story.
Warning: Sexual content will be included in later chapters. You don't like, don't read.

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2.

I followed Cheshire – Gerard – all throughout campus; I was starting to get annoyed with this kid. If your room was the biggest on campus, shouldn't it be in plain sight for everyone to gawk at? I guess people here like to keep their rich kids out of normal view. I shook my head, looking down. I suddenly stopped when I ran into Gerard's back. He grimaced and slightly growled. My eyes widened. If that little s**t bothers me one more time…

He shook his head and stared at the rather large building in front of him. My eyes widened again and my mouth fell open. He slowly nodded. "Yeah, this is my dorm." He raised a hand to scratch at his head. He shook his head. "Good thing it's big. I don't want to see your face," he hissed, glaring at me. Ungrateful, ******** narrowed my eyes at him and started to walk again. I walked ahead of Gerard and headed towards the dorm building. I stopped at the door, waiting for the other to unlock it.

"Hurry the hell up!" I shouted, getting on his nerves.

I heard him scream inside his head, but he simply walked up to the door and unlocked it. I was surprised by his gentle approach to my profanity. Hell, I didn't even care what he done. I shook my head. Why was I lying to myself? I was interested in this dark and forbidden creature. I muttered to myself as I entered the dorm.

As soon as I had a good look around, I froze in amazement. Damn… From where I was standing, I could see the entrance to two bedrooms, a kitchen, and what I thought was a library. I was in the living room. I was impressed. No wonder he wanted this all to himself. I shook my head, taking myself out of my trance and started towards the room to the right. But, apparently, Gerard didn't sit well with that.

"Don't you ******** dare go any closer to my room!" He took two long strides to reach where I was. He stepped in front of me, blocking my way. He's already getting in the goddamn way. "Your room's over there," he said, looking over at the doorway to the opposite room.

I narrowed my eyes. "Sorry," I hissed. I whipped around and stalked over to the room Gerard had shown. I flashed a glare at him before going into my new room, shutting the door behind me.

I flicked on the light switch beside the door and my jaw dropped again. In the center of the room was a large double bed. In the corners of the room were a closet and a large desk, complete with a laptop and a small bookcase beside it. The only thing the room was missing was a bathroom. Great.

I rolled my eyes and started unpacking. I could tell this was going to be so much fun. I placed my school papers on my desk, next to the laptop. I sighed. Why the ******** does he need a big dorm like this? I asked myself. I shook my head and threw my now empty bag onto the ground. I sighed again and stuffed my hands in my pockets. I walked out of the room.

The whole dorm was dead silent. I furrowed my eyebrows and looked around. Did he disappear? Oh, God, please. I shook my head again. I turned towards the room that reminded me of a library and entered it.

It was dead silent, too. The walls were lined with bookshelves that were filled with books. I nodded my head in approval until my eyes rested on someone in the corner. I soon recognized the someone to be Gerard.

That boy must have immediately changed as soon as we parted ways because now, he was in black sweatpants and no shirt. His hair looked uncombed and it looked like he had ran his fingers through it too much. He was sitting in one of the lounge chairs. He had one of his legs pulled up to his chest; the other was stretched out in front of him. A sketchbook was propped up on his knee, a pencil bouncing off his bottom lip. I slightly smiled. I had to admit, he looked pretty damn adorable.

I leaned against the doorframe, hoping for Gerard not to notice me. I searched in his mind, only finding thoughts of annoyance and boredom. I shook my head and sighed. Gerard's eyes widened and he whipped his head up. I didn't mean for my sigh to be that loud. He stood up suddenly, face red. "What the hell are you doing?" I opened up my mouth to say something, but Gerard rose up a hand. "You know what? Don't even answer that." He grabbed his sketchbook and hurried out of the room, bumping into me. He muttered an apology and hurried into his room, slamming the door shut.

I furrowed my eyebrows. What the ********? I looked at the room he had disappeared into. s**t, he didn't need to see me in my thinking state. I hate having a roommate already.

I shook my head. He is such a ******** up man. I started my way out of the room until I saw a paper in the doorway. I furrowed my eyebrows and bent over, picking it up. I straightened it out in front of me. On it was a drawing of a girl in a black and red dress. She was sitting down and looking to the side. I bit my lip and cocked my head. Beside the girl were the words 'So Long and Goodnight'. It was written in scrawny and messy handwriting. I looked back at the drawing. Did Gerard draw this? It was really good.

I gripped the picture in my hand and carried it back to my new room. I sighed and looked around. Better not get close to this school. I may not be here for long. I looked down at the picture in my hand again.

Maybe I actually wanna stay this year.

4.

I quickly walked away from Ches and Whatsername's make out session. I had no idea Gerard had a girlfriend. I bit my lip, my heart racing. Hell, why did I even care? Gerard was only my obnoxious roommate. Nothing more.

I continued walking down the hallway, utterly lost. I had no idea where I was going. I could only imagine how much more time I had before class started. I sighed and walked over to the wall, leaning against it. I slowly closed my tired, hazel eyes, letting unknown thoughts enter my head.




I was snapped awake by a sharp pain in my side. I jerked my head up, seeing who had kicked me. I frowned. "It's you."

Gerard sneered. "Did Alice get lost in Wonderland?" He laughed.

I shrugged and stood up. I raised my arms up over my head, stretching. I lowered my arms, smacking my lips. "What time is it?" I asked lazily.

"How the hell should I know?" he snapped, whipping his head to the side. It doesn't really matter. We're late for first hour anyway.

I smiled and stared at him. "Thanks, Ches." I smiled again, leaning back to pop my back. Once I stood up straight, I stared at Gerard. He was still looking off to the side. We should just skip. I cleared my throat, causing Gerard to look over at me. "How about we skip?"

Gerard studied my face for a few seconds before grinning. "You just read my mind, Alice," he said with a grin. He walked up to me, draping an arm around my shoulders and started to lead me out of the building. "I'll show you my part of Wonderland."




"Smoke?"

Gerard's voice brought me back to reality. I raised up a hand to rub at my eyes. I licked my lips and looked around.

We were under a huge, beautiful tree. Gerard had led me to this park. He said that he liked it since it was located beside a graveyard, but the park itself was breathtaking. Gerard told me it was his own "Wonderland". I kept myself from snickering.

I finally looked over beside me, seeing Gerard offering a package of cigarettes. "Oh, yeah, sure." I held out a hand, taking his offering. I took out his lighter, lighting up the end of the cancer stick. I quickly sucked on the cig, breathing in the tainted smell.

Gerard watched me smoke for a few seconds before taking a drag himself. So damn adorable. Gerard needed to watch what he thought sometimes. I smiled. I shouldn't complain about my gift.

I shook my head and took another drag. I coughed a bit before looking over at Gerard. "Who was that girl you were sucking face with earlier?" I asked, eyes wide with curiosity.

Gerard froze and bit his lip. Oh, s**t. He lowered his cig from his mouth. He knocked a few ashes from his cigarette before speaking. "Poppy. Poppy Matthews." He sighed. "She's my girlfriend. We've been together for a year now."

I slowly nodded, thinking over all the things I could say. I glanced at Gerard before speaking. "She's pretty," I said simply.

Gerard smiled, turning into Cheshire again. "She is. I picked a good one." He looked up at the sky, eyes glassy with thought.

Is she the one? I'd like to think so. I can see myself with her for the rest of my life.

I frowned.

She's adorable. I wanna go further in our relationship, though. God damn it, it's been a ******** year. I want in your pants. Haha….

I couldn't help but to laugh. Cheshire suddenly fell down and was replaced with Gerard. "Why the ******** are you laughing?"

I winced a bit. I kind of liked Cheshire better. I shook my head. "Nothing. Just thinking." I took another drag from my stick, keeping the deadly smoke in my lungs for as long as I could. I slowly breathed it out, seeing the smoke escape.

"I think that guy's dead."

I whipped my head to stare at Gerard. "What?"

Gerard looked over at me. "I got in a fight the first day you came here. That's why I was in the office." Gerard looked ahead and took a drag from his cig. "I get pretty violent in fights. I sliced him pretty bad. I think I killed him." He looked down.

I frowned. I placed the cig in my mouth and laid my hand on Gerard's shoulder. "It's okay," I told him.

Gerard looked over at me again, a wild look in his eyes. Cheshire was back in him. "Let's go visit him."




A half hour later, Gerard and I were in the ICU. I crossed my arms over my chest, silently hoping they wouldn't let us in his room. I glanced over at Gerard. He was biting his lip and silently praying for us to be allowed in. I could tell he hasn't prayed before. I looked over at the nurse behind the desk. She was typing away at the keyboard. She was hoping that if she stayed silent, we would leave. But Gerard was determined.

A few more minutes passed before Gerard finally snapped.

He slammed his hand onto the counter, shaking. "Goddamnit, woman. How long does it ******** take? Me and my boyfriend wanted to see my brother incase he doesn't make it home." My eyes widened and I looked over at him. Me? His boyfriend? The nursed seemed shocked by his outburst, too. "He has a little girl back home who just wants to know if her Daddy will come home before her third birthday." Of course, you just had to add a little kid. Gerard raised a hand to his eyes, rubbing them. "Will you please let us in?"

The nurse stared at the now crying Gerard and then at me. I pulled my best sad face. She frowned and let us in. Gerard nodded in thanks and walked over to me, wrapping an arm around my shoulders. He kissed the top of my head and buried his head in my black hair. I tensed up, scared. "Just go along with it, baby," he muttered so only I could hear.

I bit my lip, but slowly slid my arm around Gerard's waist. I slowly relaxed. I smiled. I felt like I could stay in this moment forever. Gerard's arm around me, his face buried in my hair, and me only being able to smell the faint scent of axe.

I eased into Gerard's chest, closing my eyes and parting my lips. Gerard slowly breathed out. I could feel his heart beat against my ear. I placed a hand on Gerard's chest, rubbing it softly. I could feel Gerard smile. I pushed into his mind, reading thoughts of love and acceptance.

Then, ruining our perfect moment, the stupid goddamn nurse had to butt in. "Your brother is in that room." She pointed at the room and walked back over to her desk.

Gerard sighed and slowly pulled away from me. I raised up my head and stared at him. At the moment, I felt like we had connected.

Gerard shook his head and headed into the room first; he was blushing like mad. I hate that bitchy nurse. Couldn't she see I was having a… perfect moment with my boyf-… Frank? I smiled and followed him inside the room.

Gerard was by the edge of the bed, holding onto the bed rail. A boy, about sixteen, was in the bed. He looked all frail. There was a long gash on his neck. I saw Gerard's face grow pale. I did that… Gerard shook his head. "Are you okay, Jackson?"

The boy named Jackson turned his head to look at Gerard. He winced a bit when he turned his head. "I'll survive. If you sliced me a little bit farther up, though, I would've bled out instantly."

Gerard smiled weakly. "Sorry…" he muttered.

Jackson shrugged. "It's okay. It's my fault. I shouldn't have been trying to get together with Poppy."

A flash of anger shown in Gerard's eyes. "You'll know better next time." Jackson only nodded. Gerard sighed and stood up straight. "We got to go, Jackson." Gerard licked his lips and walked over to me. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and guided me out of the room. "Come on, Alice," he grumbled. I licked my lips. My eyes widened when I heard a different voice in my head.

You take care of him.

I looked back at Jackson. He had his eyes focused on me. I will, I thought. I nodded at him before we left the room.




I looked over at Gerard as we made our way back to the school. He had doubt and confusion in his head. I felt sorry for him. I quickly broke the silence. "You're a good actor."

Gerard looked over at me, confused. He cocked his head and stared at me.

I bit my lip and looked ahead. "You made yourself cry back there. It looked realistic." Gerard pursed his lips and nodded. "You're a good actor," I repeated.

Gerard looked over at me. "You're a good boyfriend," he said quietly.

My eyes widened and I looked over at him.

He sucked in a breath. "I said that wrong," he muttered. He looked ahead. "I meant to say you're a good actor, too."

I slowly nodded, pretending to understand, but I knew what he meant.

Oh, s**t.

I smiled.

6.

I did happen to have sweet dreams that night. They shifted through Gerard and me kissing, Gerard and me making love, and just plain ones with me and him. I was pretty sure some of those dreams were Gerard's, but I couldn't really tell a difference.

I slowly opened my eyes and sat up from my spot. I was no longer laying on Gerard, but just on the couch. I frowned, wanting Gerard's arms around me again. I swung my legs over the edge of the couch and wiggled them, trying to find the floor. Which was kinda hard to do in the pitch-black room, I had to admit.

I managed to firmly plant my feet on the floor and stand up. I looked around the area, seeing the doorway to my room. I made my way over there and stepped inside. I walked over to the side of my bed and turned on the bedside lamp. I jumped slightly when I saw Gerard by my desk.

"s**t, Ches. You scared me."

His only response was a grin.

"What are you doing in here anyway?" I asked, walking over to him. Once I got close enough, I saw that he was holding a piece of paper. The piece of paper that I took.

"What are you doing with this?" he asked, showing the paper to me. It was indeed the picture of the girl in the red and black dress.

I shrugged. "I saw you rush out of the little library… thing, and you dropped it. I liked it, so I kept it. "

Gerard stared at me. He sighed and placed the picture back on my bedside table. He walked over to me and placed a hand on my cheek. "You need to ask me before taking my things, Alice." He leaned down and pressed his lips to my forehead, softly kissing it. I swore my heart skipped a beat. He pulled away too quickly for my taste. "Hurry up. We have class." He lightly smacked my cheek with his palm and left the room.

Wow, thanks, Ches…



I tightened my grip on his hand, flexing my fingers slightly. I drummed my index finger against his hand. I slowly breathed, making sure I didn't have a panic attack. He looked down at me with a ******** grin. "Let's go," he muttered towards me. I smiled and sighed.

We began to skip down the hall, laughing like idiots.

Once we reached Gerard's locker, Gerard spun me around, slamming me into the nearby lockers. He busted out laughing and opened up his locker, looking through it. He was still laughing. I grimaced and rubbed the back of my head where it had collided with the lockers. "Thanks, a*****e," I mumbled, leaning against the lockers.

Gerard laughed again, slamming his locker shut. He turned towards me. "Hey, just be thankful I'm not all bitchy as usual." I nodded, agreeing. Gerard grinned and placed his hands on my hips. He softly rubbed them. I bit my lip and slowly closed my eyes. "Is Alice excited?" he asked. He slowly picked me up and pressed my back up against the lockers. He pressed his body up against mine, making me more uncomfortable. He cocked his head and stared at me. "Does Alice want Cheshire to explore?" Gerard's hand crept up my thigh, stopping at the crook of my thigh and hip.

I bit my lip again and stared at Gerard's hand. "No… no… Alice can explore fine by himself," I muttered. Even though I wanted nothing more than to wrap my legs around his waist and kiss the s**t outta him, I contained myself.

Gerard stuck out his bottom lip in a fake pout. "Exploring by yourself is no fun." He inched his face closer. "It's more fun with friends." He quickly lapped at my cheek. I shuddered a bit, but still kept my gaze on Gerard. <********, I wanna kiss you… I smiled, tilted my head, and leaned down, breaths away to kiss Gerard.

"Gerard? Baby?"

Gerard cursed and let go of me. I slid down the lockers, Gerard helping me. Poppy appeared around the corner, brown eyes sparkling. She saw me with Gerard and her smile instantly fell. What the ******** is he doing here? I narrowed my eyes at the black-head. Well, maybe it could be that he likes me a whole lot better than you, b***h.

Poppy turned towards Gerard, her smile back. "Hey, baby. I missed you last night. Where were you? Why didn't you call me?"

He was only having dreams about me, acting like a couple with me, and cuddling with me. Basically, he was with me.

Gerard shrugged. "My phone died and I needed to get Frank used to my dorm," he said plainly. Why must you be so possessive?

I slightly smiled at Gerard's thoughts. He gave me a look before starting at Poppy again. "I was going to call you so you could come over, but Frank doesn't have a phone." Gerard rubbed Poppy's arms. s**t, another lie.

I smiled again. Why was he lying to her?

Poppy frowned slightly. "Oh, it's okay. This will make everything better." She cocked her head and slowly placed her lips onto Gerard's. Gerard furrowed his eyebrows, but he wrapped his arms around Poppy's waist, and slowly kissed her back.

I saw Gerard try and pull away a few times, but she made him keep kissing.

I saw her tongue enter his mouth, rubbing against the other's.

I saw her hand creep down and brushed against his groin.

I saw Gerard's hand slowly move down and cup her breast, squeezing.

I saw Poppy hook her leg around Gerard's hip, making sure their groins were touching.

I saw Gerard's other hand creep down and cup Poppy's a**, rubbing it.

I saw Gerard slightly open his eyes, saw my expression, and slowly shifted his position. Poppy was now pressed up against the lockers, Gerard kissing her chest through her short, black dress.

I shook my head and walked away in disgust and angst.

Some friend, Cheshire…

8.

My face was hot and sticky when I woke up. I frowned and raised a hand to wipe at my sleep filled eyes. I lowered my hand and opened my eyes.

I was greeted with Cheshire's bright eyes.

"Hello, baby," I said, smiling at him. I placed a hand on his shoulder, rubbing it. I was still laying on Gerard's chest.

Gerard smiled at me. "Good morning, Alice." He rubbed at my arms. "How did you sleep?"

I shrugged. "Dreamless. Quite peaceful." But, I did want to dream.

Gerard nodded and stared at me. "Same here." He drummed his fingers against my arm. He swallowed and cleared his throat. "Now, if I was still with Poppy, she would have made me ******** her nonstop." He let out a sad sigh.

I furrowed my eyebrows. "Don't you want to? Like sleep with her?"

Gerard stared at me, and then spoke. "Well… someday I may." May? "But not last night. You would have heard." He rubbed my arms again. "I don't want you to hear me doing something like that."

I stared at him. "But apparently you want me to watch you and Poppy make out, right?"

Gerard frowned. "Sorry," he mumbled. He raised a hand to stroke my cheek. "I thought that was going to lead somewhere, to be honest." Gerard shook his head. "Something made me stop, though." He frowned again. I stared at him. It was me. He was thinking of me.

I frowned. "I'm sorry," I whispered. I placed my hand overtop his. I gripped it. "I want you to be happy."

Gerard stared at me. He squeezed my hand. "I am happy… now." He smiled at me. I smiled back. He rubbed my cheek. I want nothing more than to kiss you.

I slowly closed my eyes. "Then kiss me," I breathed out, shivering.

Gerard's eyes widened and he shook his head. "I… I gotta go. Gotta… go before Poppy, er, wakes up, y'know." Gerard gave me a glance before sliding out of bed and exiting my bedroom.

I sighed and rolled over in bed. Great, Frank. Just great.



I managed to drag myself out of bed a few minutes later. I automatically went over to the coffee pot, pouring myself a cup. I went over to the couch and sat down in the middle of it, leaning back. I flipped onto a Saturday morning cartoon: Scooby-Doo. I smiled and took a sip out of my cup. I quietly started to hum the theme song.

Gerard's bedroom door snapped open, then, revealing Gerard and Poppy. Both of them looked like they just jumped out of the shower. Poppy was in a white tank top and jeans, her hair hung wet at her shoulders. A smile was on her face.

Gerard was the opposite. He wore an oversized black hoodie and skinny jeans. He had a frown on his face. While the couple walked past me, I read thoughts of accomplishment in Poppy's head and thoughts of disgust in Gerard's. I frowned. Something happened…

I shook my head and watched the TV screen in front of me, again. Gerard plopped down in the chair, starting to watch the cartoon, but was interrupted by Poppy sitting on his lap. Gerard looked up at her, eyes wide. Poppy giggled and bent her head down to Gerard's ear.

"Did you like that?" she whispered. I grimaced and turned up the TV. I could still hear their conversation, though. One of the advantages of reading minds; I had sensitive hearing.

Gerard smiled and looked up at her. "More than anything," he whispered back. I didn't like it, to be honest. It didn't feel right at all.

Poppy grinned. "We can do it more often if you like."

"Lovely." Dear, God, no. Poppy giggled again and tilted her head, placing her lips on Gerard's. Gerard slowly closed his eyes, kissing her back. I frowned and stood up. I walked past the intertwined couple and went into my room. I grabbed fresh clothes and exited the room.

"I'm taking a shower," I muttered, walking past them. I closed Gerard's bedroom door, blocking out the sounds of moans. I rolled my eyes. I couldn't stand them.

I looked around Gerard's room, realizing they left the bedside lamp on. I cocked my head and started towards it. I froze when I saw a slightly open condom package. I shuddered and backed up. Gross…

I shook my head and headed into the bathroom. I closed that door behind me, too. I looked around the room. My eyes widened when I saw a small tube of lube by the sink. It wasn't closed all the way. Great…

I frowned and peeled the clothes off of my body. I tossed them to the ground and turned on the shower.

Warm water splashed onto my face. It slid down my equally warm skin. I sighed and turned the shower dial, making the water freezing. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the shower wall.

Oh, s**t. I hope Alice didn't see any of this… It'll break his little heart…

My eyes widened. Why would my heart break? I shook my head and closed my eyes, feeling cold water slide down my neck. I jumped slightly by the bathroom door opening. I heard someone walk over to the sink and started to screw a cap on. I closed my eyes, realizing who it was. "Cheshire," I said simply.

"Alice," he replied, a smile in his voice.

I sighed. "What do you want?"

I sensed him frown. "Just making sure you got in here all safe."

"Ches, I saw the lube and condom."

Gerard sighed. "Just so you know, we didn't use the condom. I really didn't even want to use the lube, but she insisted we do something nasty."

I furrowed my eyebrows. "What the hell are you talking about, Ches?"

I heard him sigh and sit down on something. Must have been the toilet. "Poppy's driving me crazy. I know we've been together for a year now, but that doesn't mean we should jump into ********, right? I want to save it for one of our special moments or save it for someone special."

"Wait, I thought Poppy is your one and only?" I asked. I raised my head from the shower wall.

Gerard sighed. "I thought she was. I really wanted to ******** her a few days ago, but… something changed…" I bit my lip. He started liking me… Gerard shook his head. "I really wanted to. I love her. I still do, I think, but I know the feeling has died down."

I frowned. I was causing him confusion. I poke my head out of the shower, but still covering the rest of my body with the curtain. "What did you do in the shower?"

Gerard looked up at me, eyes dreary. "Poppy sucked me off." He lowered his head.

I stared at him. "You must have loved her if you let her do that to you."

Gerard sighed and looked back up at me. "Here's the thing. I didn't like it. I hated it, but I could never tell Poppy that." Gerard frowned and closed his eyes.

I looked down and sighed. I looked back at him. "Come here," I muttered. Gerard stared at me, confused, but still walked over to me. Still keeping one hand on the shower curtain, I slipped the other out and placed it on Gerard's cheek. I rubbed it softly, getting water on him. Gerard didn't seem to mind, though. I looked at him and frowned. "I'm sorry," I whispered, leaning forward and placing my lips to his cheek. I softly kissed the pale skin, lingering it. I felt him lean in for a second before I pulled away. I stared at him.

Gerard bit his lip and studied me. "What are you sorry for?" he asked.

s**t. I was saying sorry for me confusing his thoughts, but any normal person wouldn't know that. I sighed. I needed to tell him.

"Let me get out of here. I need to tell you something."

Warning: Sexual content is contained in this chapter. Don't like it, don't read it.

10.

Clothes dropping; lips meeting; touches made; moans granted; getting close; sheets rubbing against bare skin; heads thrown back; toes curling; fingers digging into shoulders; hips rotating; groans achieved; orgasms in unison.

It was as perfect as I had imagined. It was real love.

I smiled and cracked my toes. I sighed and arched my back, feeling his fingertips press into my warm skin. I slowly closed my eyes, breathing out. I felt his head rest against my shoulder. I turned my head and smiled. "Hello, Ches," I whispered. I softly kissed him on the cheek. "That was amazing," I breathed out by his ear.

Gerard softly laughed and wrapped his arm around my waist. He pulled me into his chest and I leaned into him. He ran his fingertips down my arm. I looked at him. "Why, though?"

He stared at me. "Because I love you."



I ran my fingertips along Gerard's arm, needing him to hold my hand. He looked over at me, frowning. I can't baby. I would love to, but we're in public. I glanced at him before dropping my hand from his arm.

I had spent my whole weekend in my room with Gerard. Just laying in bed talking, kissing, and making love. Overall, the best weekend of my life.

We made our way to Gerard's locker. I leaned against the nearby lockers and looked around the area. No students. I smiled and looked up at Gerard. He closed his locker and stared at me. I cocked my head and took a step towards him. I placed my hand on his chest, digging my fingers into his shirt. I pressed my body close to his. "Kiss me," I breathed out, looking at him.

Gerard frowned and placed his hand against my cheek. He rubbed it, staring at me. Is anybody near us? Is Poppy coming?

I looked around the area, seeing nobody. I looked back at Gerard. I shook my head and scooted closer to him. Gerard leaned in and softly kissed me.

I furrowed my eyebrows and held onto Gerard's shirt. I closed my eyes tightly and kissed him back. I wanted more - needed more - of him, but I knew that this was all I could do now.

Gerard tilted his head. I could feel his mouth open and his tongue brushing against my lips. I eagerly opened my mouth and let Cheshire's sweet tongue into my mouth. He seemed to be as eager as I was.

As our kiss deepened, I knew we had to pull away sometime. I frowned and placed a hand on Gerard's collarbone. I slowly pulled away and stared at him. He smiled at me. "I love you."

"I know."

We smiled at each other before we both jumped. Poppy had appeared around the corner. Gerard instantly pulled away from me and walked up at Poppy. She muttered something to him that made Gerard fake a smile. No doubt that it was about me.

I sighed and whipped around, leaving my smiling cat and his vicious queen.



Throughout the day, Gerard and I exchanged kisses during the short moments that we had. Most of our time was cut short by Poppy demanding to know where Gerard was. But even Poppy and Gerard's conversations made me smile. Gerard purposely thought of me.

But now, Gerard and I couldn't attempt to sneak kisses. Poppy was spending the evening here.

I stared at the couple across from me. They were holding hands and Poppy's head was resting against Gerard's shoulders. I watched them intently, surprised none of them noticed. I sighed and closed my eyes. I might as well try and do some more s**t with my mind. Practice makes perfect, right?

I sighed and leaned back in my seat. I crossed my arms over my chest and took a deep breath. Gerard, I thought. I tilted my head, smiling at his name.

Gerard's head snapped up and looked over at me. Frank? Did you do that?

I raised up my head and looked over at Gerard. I bit my lip. Did… did I just send him a thought? I guess I did, I thought, I wanted to talk, I suppose.

Gerard nodded and gave me a small smile. He bit his lip and glanced down at Poppy. I want to be over there… sitting and holding hands with you.

Same here, hun. It hurts me seeing you two together.

I'm sorry. He frowned.

I cocked my head. Why did you call me a freak when you found out about me? I thought, deciding to change the subject.

Gerard sighed. I didn't want someone that I loved to be different. It scared me, to be honest. But I don't mind so much now.

I smiled. Good. I don't want you to be scared of me. I lowered my head and bit my lip.

What's wrong?

I raised up my head and looked at him. When is she leaving?

Gerard looked over at Poppy and bounced his shoulder a bit. Poppy's eyes snapped open and she looked at Gerard. "Baby, I think it's time for you to head back to your dorm."

Poppy sat up straight and stretched. She licked her lips. "Can't I spend the night here? We do have the same class in the morning."

No, please, no.

Gerard glanced at me before looking at Poppy. "Your roommate will be worried about you."

Poppy stared at him. "She knows where I go." She laid her head back on Gerard's shoulder, looking up at him. "Please let me stay. I feel like I'm losing you."

She means it. I can't say no.

Go on, I thought, I don't care. I stood up and walked into my room, slamming the door shut behind me.



I woke up in the middle of the night and instantly started crying. 'I don't want you to hear me doing something like that.' I rolled my eyes against my tears and curled up in a ball. I tugged the blankets around my small figure, trying to make myself stop shaking.

I love you, too, Gerard. I really do.

I rolled my eyes against my tears and hid my face in my pillow. I screamed into it, but it couldn't drown out the thumping sound of moans and groans in my head.

I shook my head and clenched my fists. I shook violently. No, no, no. I shouldn't be acting like this. She did have him first and they were still together. Gerard cheated. We weren't together.

I sighed and bit my lip. Tears were streaming down my face and I tried to get them to stop. Gerard doesn't deserve my tears, now.

I loved you and you do this to me, I thought. Thanks for everything.

I couldn't help it. He had to know.

Warning: Sexual Content is contained in this chapter. Don't like it, don't read it.

12.

I looked out of the window, seeing the ground in front of the dorm covered with fluffy white snow. I couldn't help but to smile. "Ches!" I shouted, turning away from the window.

I heard someone running and a door slam. I soon saw Gerard right beside me, his chest heaving. "I know… I saw." I laughed and patted his cheek. I walked past him and into the kitchen. I licked my lips and grabbed an apple from the counter. I took a bite from it and leaned against the counter.

I clicked my tongue and looked at the apple. I studied it, turning it around. I bit into it. Gerard slid into the kitchen, then. He saw me and smile. He walked over, stopping right in front of me. He placed a hand on my arm. He kept his gaze on me as he pulled my arm away from the apple. The apple stayed in my mouth. I stared at Gerard with a raised eyebrow. He leaned forward, biting into the red fruit. I laughed and pulled away from him, the apple staying in Gerard's mouth. I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. "Really, Ches? That was extremely cheesy."

Gerard laughed and took the apple from his mouth, chewing. He swallowed and threw the rest of the apple away. He wiped his mouth and looked at me. "Oh, you know you liked it."

I snorted and turned around, facing the counter. I placed my hands on the smooth surface and drummed my fingers against it. I clicked my tongue and looked around.

Gerard snickered and placed his hands on my hips. He rubbed them, chuckling. "Oh, Frank," he said. He let out a fake moan and placed a hand on my back, pressing my chest against the counter. He shifted his position so his groin could be rubbing against my a**. I help my breath as I pressed my cheek to the cool counter. "Oh, Frank, my d**k is perfectly lined up with your a**. Whatever will we do?" He laughed.

I sighed and placed my hands on the counter, ready to push myself up. But I figured I could play around with Cheshire for a little bit.

I rotated my hips, causing Gerard to press into me more. "Oh no! How about you do something about it, baby?" I asked, puffing my bottom lip out into a fake pout.

Gerard smirked. "Whatever you say, Alice," he said, using my lovely nickname. Gerard began to slowly grind against me, holding onto my hips for support. He let out a fake moan that rang throughout the dorm. He moaned again, but it got mixed with a laugh. He bent his head down, his mouth pressed into my ear. "Mhm, Alice, you're so tight."

I held my breath and moaned. "You're just so big, Cheshire. It's a wonder how you fit." I groaned and shut my eyes, rotating my hips.

Gerard laughed and dug a hand into one of my hips. He glided his other hand down my front, making me tense up. "Aw, is Alice unsure if this is what he wants?" Gerard muttered. He gripped my growing bulge. He froze for a second, but then smirked. "Does Alice really want this to happen?" he asked. He bent his head down, pressing his lips to the back of my ear. "Does Alice want me to lift him up onto the counter, pull his skin-tight jeans down to his ankles, gently stroke his hardening c**k with my tongue, and slowly achieve his want?" Gerard rubbed his palm against my crotch. I bit my lip. I didn't know what to do.

Gerard chuckled slightly, still keeping his lips against my ear. "Does Alice want me to press his chest up against the counter, pull his jeans down and ******** him so hard up the a**-" Gerard thrusted his hips against my backside "-that he bleeds in the morning?"

I shuddered at the thought. That would ******** hurt… Gerard smirked and slowly parted his lips, letting his tongue escape and lap at my earlobe. I froze and jumped slightly. I pushed away from Gerard and backed up.

Gerard furrowed his eyebrows. "What's wrong, Frank?" I opened my mouth to say something, but no words came out. Gerard frowned and took a few steps towards me. "I'm sorry if I scared you with any of that," he whispered. He wrapped his arms around me, engulfing me in a hug. I sighed and pressed my cheek against his shoulder.

I sucked in a breath. "You didn't scare me. You just made me so goddamn horny," I said, laughing weakly.

Gerard chuckled and started swaying us. "Let me make it up to you." Gerard pushed me back a bit so I could see his face. I nodded. He placed a hand on my cheek. "Let me take you out tonight."

I grinned, happiness overflowing inside me. "Excellent." My smile disappeared then. "What about classes?"

Gerard patted my cheek and pulled away from me, walking away. "They cancel classes when it snows like this."

I nodded, but a thought still nagged at me. "What about Poppy?"

He walked up to his room, stepping inside. "Screw her!" he shouted, before slamming the door shut.

14.

I watched Gerard and Poppy from my spot in the tree. I placed a hand on the trunk, steadying myself.

I was up in a tree near mine and Cheshire's dorm. He and Poppy were saying goodnight. I bit my lip and looked up at the sky. The cool winter air was scratching my face, making it raw. I sighed and closed my eyes. I concentrated on the scene below.

"Can I stay the night?"

"I don't think you should."

"Why not?"

"Frank's become a bit distant. I think he caught something."

"You baby him."

"You don't see how we act, do you?"

"No, but-"

"Don't put in your opinion if you have no idea what we're talking about."

"Oh, fine. I love you."

"I know."

I opened my eyes and looked over the edge. Gerard's hand were in his pockets while Poppy's arms were tightly around his neck. They were kissing. It wasn't a gentle, goodnight kiss. They were thrashing around and I was pretty sure that I saw Poppy bite down hard on Gerard's lip. He winced, placed a hand onto Poppy's hip, and pushed away from her. His eyebrows were furrowed and he had a pained expression on his face. "Goodnight, Poppy."

Poppy stared at him in disbelief, but didn't say anything as she walked away. Gerard glanced at me from my spot up in the tree and started towards it. I smiled a bit before looking ahead.

Soon, I saw Gerard's head poke up. I looked over the edge of the tree branch and smiled. Gerard kept his gaze down, though. I furrowed my eyebrows and scooted down the branch, making room for Gerard.

Gerard finally managed to heave himself onto the branch, with a little help from my part. He had one of his hands over his mouth. I bit my lip and stared at Gerard as he was getting comfortable. "What's wrong?" I muttered, nodding towards his mouth. He looked down and I heard him sigh. He slowly lowered his hand and lifted up his head. My eyes grew wide. His bottom lip was bleeding. So, Poppy really did bite him. I frowned and scooted closer to Gerard. I pressed my cold palm to his cheek. "She's a b***h," I muttered.

Gerard shook his head. "Don't say that," he said softly.

I furrowed my eyebrows. "Why not? You know she's one. I heard you call her one before." I cocked my head, staring at him.

Gerard raised a hand and pressed it on his lip gingerly. "She may be a b***h, but I love her." I slowly nodded, looking down. Gerard sighed and raised up his other hand to rub my arm. "s**t, Frank, I can't lie to you." I raised up my head with a confused expression on my face. Gerard scooted closer to me, making our faces be inches apart. "I love you, not her."

I smiled and leaned forward, softly kissing Gerard. He whimpered slightly, causing me to instantly pull back. I stared at Gerard, eyebrow raised. He smiled weakly, lip still bleeding. "Sorry," I breathed out. I placed a hand on his jawline and slowly kissed him, remembering his small wound. Gerard furrowed his eyebrows and placed a hand on my waist, rubbing it. He pulled me in closer and smiled in the kiss. He tilts his head, opening his mouth slightly.

I soon felt Gerard's other hand on the opposite side of my waist. It was slowly creeping up into my over-sized hoodie and started to rub my bare back. I shivered slightly, but I didn't stop him. He pressed our faces closer and started tugging on the waistband of my jeans. He grazed his fingertips along my stomach skin. I shivered again, but I didn't object to that either.

Gerard carefully pulled away from our kiss and looked at me. I looked back. he softly laughed and pressed our foreheads together. I smiled and placed my hands on Gerard's hips, keeping my hand warm with his jacket. He scooted closer - if that was even possible - and pressed his lips to my cheek."I love you, Alice. I really do." He pulled away and stared at me, smiling."I want to stay in this moment with you forever."

I smiled and leaned forward, kissing his jawline. Gerard closed his eyes. I slowly pulled away. "I feel the same way, Ches." I moved my head to rest on the crook of his neck. I softly rubbed it, staring at him.

Gerard bit his lip, despite it already been bleeding. He placed a hand on my shoulder, but it slid down my chest. He slowly breathed in and looked at me. "Let's go to my room," he quietly said, half-smiling.

I instantly smiled and grabbed his hand. I rubbed it and slowly nodded. "I would love that," I muttered. I edged closer to him, placing my hand on his thigh. He laughed and we began to climb down from the tree.

Once we both were on the ground, Gerard gripped my hand. He pressed me close to his body, his hand on my back. Gerard carefully raised up my hand - it was my left - and softly kissed it. He smiled wickedly and licked his lips. "Soon," he breathed out, "your hand will have a new ring on it."

My eyes widened and I grinned. I wanted to do freaking backflips. I couldn't have been more happier. Gerard wanted to spend the rest of his life with me, his wonderful Alice.

I placed my hands on the sides of his face and guided his face to meet mine. I kissed him passionately, smiling. I felt Gerard laugh against my mouth, but he kissed me back despite it.

"Gerard!"

We instantly broke apart and whipped our heads to the source. Our smiles faded, but we kept our arms around each other. I narrowed my eyes and I swore I heard Gerard growl.

It was Poppy.

Gerard grimaced. "I thought I told you to leave," he spat out, wrapping his arms around me protectively. I whimpered a bit and pressed my cheek up against his chest.

Poppy crossed her arms over her chest and took a few steps closer to us. "I had to see if it was true."

Gerard furrowed his eyebrows. "If what was true?"

Poppy cocked her head. "If you two were really ******** buddies."

Rage built up inside me at the tone of her voice. I heard disgust in her voice. I glared at her.

That's so gross. How the ******** could they stand to live like that?

I fought the urge to spit in her stupid, stuck up face. "We aren't ******** buddies, you b***h," I spat out. Gerard's eyes widened and he lightly shook me.

Poppy didn't seem affected by my comment, though. She laughed. I clenched my fists against Gerard's chest. She narrowed her eyes at me."I'm the b***h? Who's the one taking my boyfriend away?" I frowned and looked down. I pushed away from Gerard, but he still held onto me.

"Leave him out of this, Poppy," Gerard said, tightening his grip on me.

Poppy whipped her head to stare at him. "Why? He's the whole reason we're going through this. If you didn't have to go to this little b*****d behind my back-"

"Shut up!" I cut in. I broke free from Gerard's grip and started towards Poppy. I grabbed her shoulders and shook her. "Don't you ******** call me a b*****d!" I hissed in her face. Poppy smirked at me and smacked my cheek. It burnt, and I wanted to tear her face apart.

Gerard then stepped in, placing a hand on mine and Poppy's shoulder. He tore us apart and glared at us. What the hell, Alice?

I lowered my head. It's a touchy subject, I thought, biting my lip.

Gerard nodded once and looked over at Poppy. "Have you ever wondered why I went to Frank? Why I love him the way I do?" Poppy opened her mouth to say something, but then closed it. Gerard bit his lip and shook his head. "When we first got together a year ago, I loved you more than anything." Gerard stepped closer to Poppy and placed his hands on the sides of her face. I stepped back a bit, uncertain.

Gerard cocked his head, staring at her. "But now, everything's changed between us."

Poppy nodded. "Because of Frank."

Gerard shook his head and placed a finger on her lips. "No. It was you. You changed. Every time we would meet, we would have to kiss or touch. Your mind was set on having sex, while I was focusing on the future. The future of us. I didn't mind what you were aiming to do at first, but I soon got tired of it. I knew if we were going to go anywhere in our lives, our relationship shouldn't just be based on sex." Gerard stared at Poppy, chewing on the inside of his cheek. He raised up a hand, starting to stroke Poppy's cheek.

"Why did you suddenly change?" Gerard asked. "Was it because all of your friends had great boyfriends that they already had a stable, even sexual relationships with? He lowered one of his hands from Poppy's face and instead rested it on her hip.

He stared at her before continuing. "Or was it because you had a gothic, greasy boyfriend that none of your friends liked? But you knew that I would do anything for you, and you decided that this was your opportunity to finally lose it?" He cocked his head, still staring, watching.

Poppy's eyes widened and she squirmed from under Gerard's grip. I watched, helplessly. I didn't know what to do. Poppy finally spoke. "What are you talking about? I love you. That's why I wanted to lose it to you."

Gerard shook his head, baring his teeth. "Don't you ******** lie to me. You stopped loving me right before Alice came here."

"Alice-?"

"Right when you and Jackson were fooling around. I still loved you, Poppy. That's why I hurt him. I wanted to tear him. Limb. By. Limb. Because he dared put his hands on you. I wanted him to ******** suffer." My eyes widened. I was seeing the darker side of Gerard. It scared me a bit. "But now, I wouldn't care if you two ******** right in front of me.

"Now, when I first saw Alice-"

"Who the hell is Alice?"

"-I know there was something special about him. I just couldn't put my finger on it. At first, I picked fights with him to get under his skin. It seemed to work, but I couldn't keep acting like I hated the kid... In fact, I felt quite the opposite." Gerard gave me a glance, causing me to blush and smile.

"With each passing day, I found myself getting closer to him, and vice versa. I learned some things about Frank," he glanced at me again, "and then we ended up kissing and making love."

Poppy sucked in a breath and muttered something that sounded like 'disgusting'.

Gerard grimaced. "Then, I had sex with you. Yes, I slept with Frank before you. And I loved it way more than ******** you."

Poppy glared at Gerard. "Is that why you seemed so distant when we were in bed? You didn't want to?" Gerard only nodded. Poppy stared at Gerard, eyes narrowed with a glare. "So, you're a f*****t now?"

I growled and started towards her, arm raised. Gerard held me back. "And this is why you were never going to get a ********' ring. You're a b***h."

Poppy stared at Gerard in disbelief. Her mind had gone completely blank. Gerard had an accomplished look to his face. Poppy slowly opened her mouth to speak. "Get the ******** away from me," she breathed out. She yanked away from Gerard and stormed off. She was definitely leaving this time.

We're over.

I grinned and turned to look at Gerard. "She says it's over."

Gerard laughed, throwing his head back. "I would hope so. I didn't just stand there ranting if it was for nothing."

I stepped closer to Gerard. "It wasn't for nothing."

Gerard smiled and place a hand on my cheek, rubbing it. "Thanks, baby." He cocked his head, staring at me. "How's your cheek?"

I frowned and lightly touched the cheek Gerard was touching. "Better." I clenched my jaw. "Poppy slaps hard."

Gerard softly laughed. "I'm glad to get her out of my hair." He smiled and lowered his hand from my face. He gripped my hand. "Lets go to my room now," he said with a grin.