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Anyone know someone who is seriously ill in their heads and really just hates on everything and literally can't snap out of it no matter how good of a friend you are and just drags you to hell? The negativity is so overwhelming and it's pretty ridonkadonk. I am pretty indestructible. I don't expect people to be like I am. I don't expect them to be happy majority of the time, but I also don't expect people to be sad all of the time for what I feel are insignificant reasons. There's also some kind of miss- communication here where I won't respond because I don't know exactly how to do so without pissing said person off, and it's not that I don't care it's just the fact that it's the same story every time. He's like a bro and I care for him worlds but, I donno. I feel like when I am there for him, it doesn't help. I don't help, and I shouldn't even waist time because It literally doesn't even feel like I am a friend.

I have this thing, where I don't like telling people what to do. I'll always give an opinion and let you act on your thoughts if you really needed help. I think that the entire reason that thing ever happened was because of this person. He makes valid points, but it's just stupid because he twists everything around and honestly thinks the world should revolve around him. It's pretty selfish sometimes.

I have a few outlets for my issues but this particular person doesn't even have it that bad. He's not alone in the world. I've known the dude since kindergarten. He's been a best bud and it seems as though every issue is solely because of his attitude and general outlook on life.

I donno what to do. :l

Yeah, I had thought of getting his mind off of it with a productive routine. The only issue is he's holed up in his home worse than I am. He won't even come over. Every time he asks me to come over his place. It's been like that for years and if I try the subject will be changed x_x

The gym is a great suggestion. If he worked out for just a little and got his mind off the things that were running through his brain than it would be way better. *shrugs* I work out at home and work. It does wonders honestly D: I don't think he knows but he's in like a self destructive mode. It's been lingering for a while. I should know because I used to live in it when I was younger. The only problem here is he is older now, and he can't get out. emotion_8c He hates society so much that it's hard to even say he would take an awesome job like that.

I always thought depression medication was something that made you more depressed but I don't want to just assume that. *ultimate shrug* If I even suggested that he would be like a crazy bull in a China shop. *end shrug*

He can't drive because he doesn't have a license, I always offer. I drive out at 1 or 2 a.m. to get sandwiches and stuff from wawa when we hang out. I'd like to take him places but he dun wanna. We go out and get food or new games sometimes. He's really smart, but he doesn't use his head... This sounds bad, but he's kinda tricky and evil. It's a bit weird... I don't know how to explain it other than that, but I feel as though he's more-so the victim if that makes any sense...

It's like I said, he doesn't trust. Everyone is an enemy. If someone helps him, he thinks it's because that person has something to gain from it. You can tell how in everyone else head he is. He's in everyone's head except his own. It makes me kinda uncomfortable. emotion_8c

He talks about honesty a lot, but he's become very hypocritical. His parents are divorced, his mom's an alcoholic who cheat on his dad, she left and he's literally put in an environment with no help... This is why I take every opportunity even if I am drained of life to go help him when I am able but the reason for me even posting this is it's getting tougher to do it, and I shouldn't have to, especially at his age. I have a lot of fun around him sometimes, but I am always guarantee'd hearing something I don't want to without a say. If I speak I am automatically wrong or I don't understand him.

I don't ask for much, I appreciate you at least trying to open my mind a little bit. emotion_c8 It's hard for me to even really work on what I am doing without thinking about this kind of stuff. I just want to know he's going to be alright, and he makes me pretty worried about where he will end up. I just need him to help himself so I can help him out. I donno how to do that. Also, apologies again for the walls of text. It's my thing. I promise I am not this talkative.