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 Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 9:15 pm
((if anyone is curious, it's both solo and private because Mika is allowed to post whenever it suits Chiyukii to make an appearance and have minor observations or interactions with her here. and the context might seem unusual to anyone not invovled in our rp's.lol she'll understand))
Pausing as she walked into that very shadowy ring of trees. Where light barely entered behind her and always to her back. She stopped and she listened to be sure there was no trace of being followed. Though she fiercely felt like this wasn't really something she should have to hide; she knew that if Kazuhiko really knew what was going on. He'd probably go through the roof. Karis was not one bit interested in his attempts to 'wake her up' to Yuki's shenanigans. For her part, she did a bit. That whole scene that felt like forever ago. That day opened her eyes to so much. For a moment, she saw her beloved from all sides. She saw him as the way he wanted to be seen, the way she had been seeing him, and the way others saw him. While anyone normal and possibly in their right minds would have just left. Surely, she should have felt a fool and an idiot to fall for his charades of being his godly self. Still, for having seen all that, her heart was steadfast. Despite seeing and knowing... despite having him accost her in such a way. It was the first time she had ever seen a jealous Chiyukii.
She stepped under the trees and looked around. Her eyes searched the darkness. She knew he was out there. Almost incessantly since the time she heard Kazuhiko utter that notion. That Chiyukii was a stalker and always following her. Truly, it should have disturbed her. Was it any kind of natural love or affection to desire to love another from afar? Yet, Karis was still possibly too naive. She really didn't know anything about Yuki from before she met him. Who knew what had happened in his life to make him afraid to love someone up close? Then, she would often consider the idea of him fancying himself a god. Would anyone else consider him a loon and part with having further to do with that? Again, she found herself unable to really judge him or scorn him for that either. In her heart, over the past few months with all the things going on in their world. So much chaos and upheaval. The idea of giving up her love for him was beyond the absurd or ridiculous. Even if she did want to, she just couldn't do it. Her heart wouldn't let her. She was bound in a way she couldn't explain.
Karis pawed one of her long purple ears and smoothed the fur on it. She smiled helplessly to herself. She looked around to make sure she wasn't being watched. She had taken pains to be sure this would be private. She then began to whisper softly to him. She knew he was somewhere there. Listening to her prayers and meditation. She knew now that for her to do this only fed into his god complex. Probably, it wasn't a good idea to enable that behavior, but she loved him too much. Also, she had discovered something wonderful about this arrangement. She knew he would relish being prayed to far too much to get up and leave if she said something he didn't care for. Since this didn't require him to answer or appear to her, he likely wouldn't flee in the face of her ardent emotions.
"Oh my Lord Yuki. I came a little earlier today. I could hardly wait. Sometimes lately, I can't always come. Sometimes with all these things going on in the environment, I'm forced to move to new locations. Still, I somehow feel like I know this is where I would find you. Funny that I instinctively know this now. but... then again, I hope it makes me a good follower. That I should know him whom I seek. Well enough that I should know where to find his presence. Only that it would make me the highest and greatest of your acolytes. For, you surely must know that in my every waking thought. In my every waking breath. My entire existence pulses with a need for you. Of course you know this."
Then, she stopped. She considered that. That prayer had a hint of pride in it. She had always had a great deal of humility and was never proud. No. It wasn't pride. Is it so prideful to want him to think better of her than of anyone else who ever crossed his path? She hoped it wasn't. That hinted of jealousy and other darker emotions. Ones she hadn't previousy ever glimpsed in her heart. Though the idea of jealousy fed into her next prayer to him.
She then spoke even softer. She hoped this bit would not make him angry with her. "Oh my magnificent and mighty Chiyukiiiii. I was confused and bewildered by your outrageous jealousy. The idea you would think that I felt towards anyone else makes me feel appalled. Still.. though dark and dangerous is a feeling like that. The need to react to a feeling of me giving time and attention to someone else. That wanting all my attention only for yourself. While selfish... it would seem to me that action is also rooted in another feeling. One that appeals to me. You perhaps may never say so openly to me. I really have nothing to base this on. It's just a feeling. Also... just wanted to say thank you. There have been days when the weather was terrible and dangerous for me to be in it. Amazingly, I'd come to the entrance of the cave i'd be in at the time. There'd be food waiting. You'll be glad to know I have been eating."
Not sure if she should say more. She didn't want to say too much. She just relaxed and curled up there with the sun warming her back. She basked in what she hoped was his piercing gaze from somewhere nearby.
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Posted: Thu Jun 20, 2013 7:36 pm
He narrowed his golden gaze upon the one female he couldn't seem to shake--emotionally and physically. No matter how much he tried to leave her be, no matter how much he wanted to forget her, he couldn't leave her alone. He proposed to himself that such emotion was not unwarranted; after all, she was merely a devout follower. He was a god, after all. Still, subtle feelings emerged that he had attempted to suppress for a long time. Emotions that he did not wish to observe or analyze, admit or release. Yet, this stupid female... this utterly adoring, beautiful, innocent female that had so capture his attention would not be left alone. Despite her prayers, she demanded his presence. Her love for him merely increased his already massive ego. In the back of his mind, he knew he was "mortal," and "normal," but because he had a hefty fear of death, and even the unknown, he created a mask for himself that eventually led to his current situation; besides, he refused to admit he feared his eventual end. Regardless, he enjoyed such devotion and love. He had craved this kind of attention for many years, and he wasn't about to keep Karis from her adoration of his lovely form. Still, he wasn't ungrateful. He always ensured she was able to find rest and food in that same cavern she mentioned, where he had used her for other... pleasures... and speaking of which, Chiyuki figured that he might just do that soon.
His tail swished silently as he relaxed on a branch, high enough Karis couldn't see him, but close enough that he could watch and listen. He wondered as to where his endearing little brother had disappeared to, but understood from the way Karis acted she wanted privacy. Besides, Kazuhiko was far too stubborn and gruff and unruly to deserve a lovely one like Karis, no matter how naive and silly she was. Chiyuki knew his "reign" as a fake god would end at some point, but for now, he wanted to bask and wallow in delight of his one and only devoted follower. But, in the case of repeating himself in the attempt to avoid questioning his motivations for this Karis, Chiyuki decided it was high time he made a reappearance. If only for his own personal, pleasurable sake, though he knew Karis would be so delighted and happy it wouldn't matter if he vanished again... except, he continued to return to her side. Chiyuki let loose a very quiet growl at his private thoughts. His mind kept warring with his heart, but his heart was long dead and cold. He simply wished to play with Karis to his own content, that's all. Once again, Yuki refused to analyze and acknowledge his true feelings to Karis, and simply hid behind his facade of vanity and godliness. Chuckling under his breath, Chiyuki silently faded away as he made his trip to that very special cavern once again.
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