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... Having a lot going on.

It's not fun.

Ready? Okay go. *DEEP BREATH*
My best friend in the world just announced on Myspace that she was Bi and she hadn't even told me yet. It has been pretty FRIKKIN obvious and I had already guessed that this was going on. and I'm hurt that she did tell me and I don't know if it's because she felt like she couldn't or if it was because she didn't want to, or if she felt it wasn't important. And it isn't like she hasn't had a chance. She posted this before Graduation and we've seen each other twice since she posted it. and it's been really confusing because now I'm wondering if I haven't been a good enough friend for her lately? and THAT is what I'm most worried about
NEXT
This Sophmore who I went to school with this year has the most obvious crush on me and I have not got any feeling towards him that are similar in nature, I mean he's okay and I don't mind hanging out with him in large groups where I can talk for a bit and social butterfly myself over to a new person after I get done talking. But now he's asking me out on date things and I don't have any expriance when it comes to dealing with this sort of thing so I end up saying maybe or telling him I'm busy, (And I usually am busy anyways so I'm not lying to him but it's really awkward and makes me uncomfortable. especially since the last time I was hanging out with him I ended up playing Referee/Babysitter for 6 other guys while we all tried to play a freeking game, which I never want to play again, Arkhem Horror is NOT as great as it sounds LET ME TELL YOU.
*INHALE*

Ahh okay I've got that off my chest. I feel about the same but my fingers are tired.

Hmm, venting sounds like fun!
*names have been shortened*

Ok, a while ago (before easter) I was in this church play with my best friend, BC. We were *ahem* "women friends" to the prodigal son (yeah, right). Anyway, BC's friend (I'd met him before), DM, wsas playing Jesus (who casted this play, anyway?). So we hung out alot during and after the ten million pracitces. Anyway, we were out back (the doors were open into the practice room, so it wasn't like that) on this bench. I was in front, and I wsa leaning up against BC's knees, and she was leaning up against DM's. There was this floodlight next to us, and I looked the other way and at our shadows. And, lo and behold, they were making out. Well, whatever.

Later on BC told me that she was kinda pissed that he didn't ask her out. I mean, he was ALL over her, thinking I couldnt see him. Yeah.

The thing is, my friend EE treats DM like her brother. She would FREAK if she found out they were doing all this crap (like he was sliding his hands up her shirt, down her shorts, etc. BC didn't really mind the crap except that he still hasn't asked her out.

Thats not the best/worst part. On a recent camping trip, my parents let me and BC stay in a tent by ourselves. They slept at home. About 80+ people were camping in our group, so It wasn't bad. At night when we were hanging out in my tent, DM would come over, play poker (I won :]) and such. Later BC told me he had been all over her. In fact, I was talking to BC once and in the middle of a sentance, DM starts making out with her. Just like that.

I am still covering for BC and DM, and its really frusterating and ARRgGGH!

Don't even get me started on MY ex-Boyfriend problems.


ps BC and DM are still not going out.

Ok you asked for it.

Back on March first I sliped on a big sheet of ice out side of work. (Now I should note that my compeny did not salt, sand or shovel anay part of the building all winter)

Becouse of my haveing sliped on the sheet of ice I dislocated my left shoulder, got Tendites and now the chance of soft tissue damnge. Now becouse of my should being so messed up I am limeted to how much and what I can do ie clean my cloths becouse the laundery mat is a bit of a walk and have only one working arm that I can't over work to much or I will kill it to. So my work has been giveing me s**t for that, they are also giveing me s**t becouse I am not working at full speed and becouse I have had to take a few days off becouse my should has been hurtting alot.

Mean wile Workers comp seems to trying to make what ever pain I feel is nothing so i should still be able to work fully and are unwilling to back me up and more and more there is becomeing a chance hat I might need surgery on my left shoulder becouse of it,

I am fighting this battle on my own and I feel like i am loseing and that I have no one to help me.

There that did feel better.

But when boring is not bad it is good!

Does that make any sense?

Im sorry Fry workers Comp are a brunch of dicks.
Do you have a lawyer? If you dont you should. It will help alot My mother has been on workers comp for 7 years and we would have got no where without a lawyer. they will fight you tooth and nail.But I pray that you will get the surgery .

Yes I can. I will find a way.

Thats what I am looking at right now.

So do I. I hate being stuck at home like this. I really do.